I remember his face like it was yesterdaybraced mouth smirking slightly, gaze drawn judgingly just above my eyes.

Youre kind of scary-looking.

A fallacy perpetuated by a 13-year-old boy with bleached tips, a puka shell necklace, and JNCO jeans.

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But, actually, the opposite is true.

And I get it.

Who doesnt want to be happy?

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It workedIve been labeled as the sweet girl several times.

Confession: Im not actually sweet.

Im sort of narcissistic, actually, and really, really impatient.

Im happy and carefree sometimesjust not always.

When I accepted this pretty recently, it was so liberating.

You look better when you do.

Im not, by definition, happy.

When I am, I will smile.

But it wont be for you.

Ive always been deathly afraid of going out in public sans a fully done-up face.

You dont need to wear that muchmakeup, one well-intentioned guy I dated tried to convince me.

You look beautiful without.

With my lashes and glowing blush, I felt like my best self.

Then, an attitude change was set into motion.

People just didnt give a crap (that New York charm, I guess).

Are you a pear, banana, hourglass, or apple?

Although I desperately wished I were an hourglass (a.k.a.

And thats something to show off.

Youd have to have a models bone structure for that.

It wasnt until I switched stylists that I began to look at my face in another light.

It would look amazing on you!

So I did it.

Thinkpixie cutsare cute, but worried youre not petite enough?

Want to get ridiculously long extensions?

Want to dye your hair hot pink and shave the sides?

No matter what style you choose, someone is going to think favorably or unfavorably of it.

So might as well do you.

My love for Sephora truly runs deepyou might even call it an addiction.

Some drugstore products work just as well as department store brands.

In fact, some drugstore brands are owned by the same company as the department store brands!

She also recommends Revlon eyeshadows for their staying power and the Milani brand for natural-looking blush.

The best areas to splurge at Sephora, according to Green?

Primer, pencil liner, and concealer.

But despite this, Im continuously reassured by two truths.

So maybe these beauty truths we hold to be self-evident…arent.

Aging comes with a sense of pure and unadulterated DGAF-ness, which I love.

Plus, it doesnt hurt searching for JNCO jeans boy on Facebook and seeing what he looks like today.

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