Chrissy Teigenoften speaks without a filter, and her latest cover story is no exception.
In theApril issue ofGlamourmagazine, the model and Internet darling penned a letter about her experience withpostpartum depression.
I have an incredible husbandJohn and I have been together for over 10 years.
Miguel Reveriego
He has seen my successes and failures; Ive seen his.
And yet, for much of the last year, I felt unhappy.
What basically everyone around mebut meknew up until December was this: I have postpartum depression.
Miguel Reveriego
I remember thinking: Maybe Ill feel better when we have a home….
I couldnt figure out why I was so unhappy.
Maybe Im just supposed to be a mom.
Getting out of bed to get to set on time was painful, she writes.
My lower back throbbed; my shoulderseven my wristshurt.
I didnt have an appetite.
One thing that really got me was just how short I was with people….
I wondered: Am I making this all up?
Suddenly I had become this person whose shoulders would cower underneath her chin.
I would keep my hands on my belly and have a go at make myself as small as possible.
I didnt have anything remotely close to those feelings.
I looked at Luna every day, amazed by her.
So I didnt think I had it.
I also just didnt think it could happen to me, Teigen writes.
I have a great life.
But postpartum does not discriminate.
I couldnt control it.
Sometimes I still do.
It was a relief, however, when Teigen finally realized she was struggling with postpartum depression.
John had that same excitement.
I started taking an antidepressant, which helped.
It got easier and easier to say it aloud every time.
I often just call it postpartum.
Maybe I should say it, though.
Maybe it will lessen the stigma a bit.)"
I cant imagine not being able to go to the doctors that I need.
I look around every day, and I dont know how people do it.
Ive never had more respect for mothers, especially mothers with postpartum depression.
Ive hated hiding this from you.
