Nowhere to hide

I was the dark one with the birthmark. What’s that red stuff? Did you spill something on yourself?" “Tell them it’s a birthmark and that you were born with it. But even at 5, I was all about self-preservation. By fifth grade, though, anger roiled within me. When the boy who sat behind me leaned in close and whispered, “Hey, Red Beard! I could barely suppress my rage. But I felt I had no right to defend myself....

November 29, 2008 · 4 min · 730 words · Courtney Hill

The crime against women that no one understands

She slowly drank one beer, then a second. When the 28-year-old accountant returned to her barstool, her glass of wine was waiting. Leigh took a sip. The pain felt as if he were ripping her in two. Her limbs were leaden, her mind sluggish. “Stop, like stop,” Leigh mumbled. Leigh slid back into unconsciousness but kept resurfacing that endless night to discover Marsalis violating her limp body. Finally, she opened her eyes to an apartment filled with late-morning light....

November 29, 2008 · 7 min · 1333 words · Ryan Schmidt PhD

Keeping up with the yogis

For years, a good friend had been singing the praises of her quirky, charismatic yoga teacher. First off, the instructor barked out the names of the poses in Sanskrit. Worse, he immediately began singling out students to critique their form (not in a nice way). He even mocked one woman for bringing her own mat. (Apparently, communal mats loaded with sweat and bacteria are somehow more yogic.) Yet I found myself going back again....

November 15, 2008 · 2 min · 421 words · Dana Brown

Slim down this weekend

Turn so left side faces anchor. Stand with feet hip-width apart; extend left arm to front at shoulder level. Pull band across body (as shown). Do reps. Switch sides; repeat. Stand with right foot in front of left, knee bent. Bring hands near shoulders, forearms parallel to ground, palms down (as shown). Do reps. Switch lead leg; repeat. Press arms down until hands meet thighs. Do reps. Switch lead leg; repeat....

November 15, 2008 · 2 min · 225 words · Joseph Lawson

My office fantasy

There are things I always knew: that I wanted children and that I’d be a good mother. That no other work could be more meaningful than raising happy, well-adjusted children. Which is to say, I knew absolutely nothing at all. I was a lawyer in New York City when I became pregnant. I hoisted myself out of my chair to close my office door. The salary was equally enticing, and the job, she made clear, was mine for the taking....

October 18, 2008 · 3 min · 483 words · Jared Blackburn

Shop for a cause

All products featured on Self are independently selected by our editors. However, we may receive compensation from retailers and/or from purchases of products through these links. It’s so you Sterling charm bracelet (with charms shown), $310;RembrandtCharms.com. $5 from each sale benefits Susan G. Komen for the Cure. Magic crystal Tourmaline necklace, $465; Baccarat, 800-777-0100. $65 benefits the Breast Cancer Research Foundation. Sweet Kisses Limited edition Bobbi Brown Pink Ribbon Collection, Pink Glitter gloss and Tulle lipcolor....

October 16, 2008 · 3 min · 584 words · Jack Vasquez

The Clear Skin Diet: How To Eat For Better Skin

We spend lots of time and money consideringwhat we put on our faces. But how much do you think about whether or not you’re following a clear skin diet? But some are rethinking the party line. Geri Lavrov / Getty Images Here’s what we found. Pile these on your plate. All pack nutrients essential for healthy skin. A strong support layer underneath helps smooth what’s on top and prevent wrinkles, she says....

October 7, 2008 · 3 min · 430 words · Ricky Williams

2008 Women's Cancer Handbook Resource Guide

The goal: Diagnose all women’s cancers at stage I, when they are most curable. National Cancer InstituteNCI includes an online dictionary that features 4,000 cancer-related terms to help you better understand the illness. Access info on assessing and lowering your cancer risk and clear up common misconceptions. The clubhouses offer support groups, lectures, self-discovery workshops (yoga, cooking, etc.) MyCancerPlace.comDon’t face cancer alone. BreastCancer.orgThe most visited online breast cancer resource, BreastCancer.org features more than 4,000 pages of original medical content....

September 21, 2008 · 4 min · 664 words · Jason Lyons

Cancer in a can?

When she first hung up with her doctor one December day in 2004, Rachael Rawlins could only cry. “I was shocked, surprised, incredulous,” she says. “I was only 40. It wasn’t in my family. I was very fit. I didn’t drink much alcohol. I didn’t think I had any risk factors.” She and her husband began trawling the Internet for leads. Most every drop of Rawlins’s drinking water had contact with BPA, she says....

September 21, 2008 · 3 min · 627 words · Jesse Howard

Daring to date again

Picture this: You’re in a bar, and a guy a few seats over starts flirting. Soon, you’re sharing personal detailsthe last movie you’ve seen, music you like. For me, that’s when things get uncomfortable, especially when all his friends are standing around listening. Because I’m not working. Almost three years ago, I was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer. Among other things, I can’t have kids and I have a disfigured right breast....

September 21, 2008 · 4 min · 813 words · Brandy Bell

Fighting back with fun and fitness

“Boarding put me in control.” “After you’re diagnosed, control over certain areas of your life is taken away from you. Less than a year after a lumpectomy and chemo, I was ripping it up on the mountain again. In 2009, B4BC will launch a scholarship program to send survivors to snow, skate and surf camp. For more information, check outBoarding for Breast Cancer. “Being outside makes me feel alive and happy....

September 21, 2008 · 3 min · 446 words · Sherry Brown

My mother, my cancer fears

I am sitting in a tiny changing room at a mammography center, shirtless, and I am crying. No reason to, logically: I haven’t even taken my test yet. Nor have I found a lump. And when that person shared your genes, it’s doubly fraught. And what did it feel like when it went wrong? “I have bad, bad breast cancer,” she said, her voice breaking. She was three weeks from her 58th birthday....

September 21, 2008 · 4 min · 729 words · Evan Thompson

Play your way slim!

Hang from bar with arms straight, legs together. Bend elbows and pull yourself up until chin passes bar (as shown). Hold position for 10 to 15 seconds. Use arms to lift yourself off bench. Do 12 reps. Switch legs; repeat. Reach back with left foot and place toes on seat. With hands on hips, sink into a lunge (as shown). Slowly return to standing. Do 12 reps. Switch sides; repeat....

September 21, 2008 · 1 min · 189 words · Emily Schroeder